everything seems pointless

separated.....
sad? yes i do, ofcourse!
for many reasons i had to. but he's just half of me. he's still the one that support me with all his life. and i knew he do care about me a lot, and i really thankful about that. i'm really really missing him, i hope he can understand what is all about, i decide because i have to, and we can go back to our way someday after all of these that we must struggle for.

and i just love him :)

I can't explain the way you made me feel,
every time that you told me that you loved me
and you know you did,
too many times
just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
thats when you came along,
and showed me happiness
baby you are the best,
i think you're different from the rest
and i really love you
-kci jojo, tell me its real

someone said

oke postingan ini terinspirasi setelah gue baca blog temen sekelas gue yaitu Arfian Herbowo. oke dia emang bak Einstein di kelas, calon mahasiswa STEI-ITB yang berpotensial tinggi, menurut gue. hahaha gue jadi ngomongin sosok seorang arfian deh kan jadinyaa, wekekeke. okee di sabtu pagi ini gue terinspirasi oleh apa yang ada di blog nya arfian, he said

Belajar dan bermain itu hubungannya sangat erat.
Orang tidak akan belajar kalau tidak bermain, dan tidak akan bermain kalau tidak belajar.
Yang paling baik adalah menganggap bahwa belajar itu adalah permainan.

yeah those words, so inspire me, and make me understand about for what study is , even that i find so much stress in study and its remember me that God never give us something that we cant handle, okay arfian was right. and let those words planted in our mind. yaa biar gaul dikit gitu yaaa, gue ubah dikit yee ke english, hehehe, so

study and play have tight context.
peolpe dont wanna study if they dont wanna play a game,
and dont wanna play a game if they dont study.
and the best thing is, regard that study is a game.
- Arfian Herbowo

this influenced me and this is as my favorite quotations now. and, wish me luck : )

my jason came to the town

oke, karna besok gue nggak ada jadwal buat super intensif math di sekolah, gue memutuskan buat posting something happened yang udah rada basi di critain, tapi berkesan banget buat gue. yaaa jjf tanggal 6 kemaren emang berkesan banget buat gue, ngeliat Mr. A-Z manggung live merupakan anugrah di tahun ini buat gue (selain LULUS UN, ketrima PTN, AMIN) , oke walopun gue kalah sama si iqbal yang udah dapet foto bareng Mraz :'(
OKE, NGGAK APA!
gue tetep mensyukuri apa yang telah gue tonton di jjf kmaren.
opening yang groovy dengan Make It Mine nya, waaah bikin fly dia nyanyiin itu, dan closing Butterfly yang super amazing. yaah tapi gue rada sedih kenapa dia ngga nyanyi wordplay, wedeh tapi ga apa! tetep SALUTE FOR MR. A-Z!
beberapa hasil jepretan gue pas lagi jjf for mr. a-z

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ratih and i hahaha kea lesbian -___-'

banyaaaaaaaaak

banyaaaaaaaaaaaaak banget yang pengen gue posting, tapi banyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak bangeeeeeet halangan nyaaaaaa, sok sibuk nggak juga, tapi emang sibuuuk, maleeees iya jugaaa sih.
see you soon. hahaha posting-an nggak gunaaaaa!

foolish

i cant explain why its not enough, ok this my fault but did you realize?
i sit and wait and wonder alone,
my mistake was stupid,
i realize i'm wrong,
i'm sorry, really sorry
oh, wait, i think, you can't,
because a tear rolled down your face as i started to leave,
he said baby don't do this, i'm begging you please!
i said im leaving because
i cant live this way
i dont care if you cry,
i dont care what you say.
youre not going to change how i feel about you,
im done we're over..
this time we're through!
i know this hurt and think about it every second,
there's no more about... me and you!

a moment

just a moment, i pray like this. yes ofcourse. i really wanna make it work, on my promises, just make it work, always i try, but i dont know if i have another chance, arghhhh but i wont. i wont but i want it. NO! its like in between, but i think its just a moment. yeah i swear!

realize

the greatest thing i'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.
i found this man in my miserable.
he came with a bunch of caring and happiness, he always make me smile and laugh.
he is the only one i can trust ( i try) and
i really dont wanna make him feels like a foolish who cant make a girl trust to him,
yeah baby i'm trying, always.
i always love him, because i think he loves making my day,
he surely doesnt mind when all i want is the warmth of his touch.

it makes everything else seem pointless.
and i can find arms that will hold me at my weakest,
eyes that will see me at my ugliest,
and a heart that will love me at my worst, then i've found true love, my pray.

i see you in my dreams at night and we live together, forever,
but when i wake up i realize that it was only a dream.
i always pray that my dreams can be true, i dont know when exatcly but surely it will..